Mar 02 2007
The Light
We’ve all had those times. When life feels like its gone to molasis. Everything is moving slowly, stopped or moving backwards. We’re stuck in a trough and can’t see the next peak coming. When it does come, and it eventually does, it’s usually a good one. Leah’s summed it up nicely.
It creeps up on you. That feeling. That, blah, when you go to work on something that you’ve slaved over for months or even years. Suddenly it’s a chore. You’ve got no energy, no passion. The fuel is gone. In my experience, even as you get sucked down, things can turn around.
Once in a while you get shown the light, in the strangest of places if you look at it right.
Something will come up. Some new aspect, some new motivator. Something that’ll point you out of the rut. It may even be a new project, a new hobby. Something that lets us see again.
Just so. Opening your eyes is all that is needed. The heart lies and the head plays tricks with us, but the eyes see true. Look with your eyes. Hear with your ears. Taste with your mouth. Smell with your nose. Feel with your skin. Then comes the thinking, afterward, and in that way knowing the truth.
We get to the point where we’re rushing to our goals. We’ve just got one more thing to do, one more place to go, one more person to talk too. We forget to see. We forget to hear. We forget to taste. It all gets back burnered. We’ll do it later, we’ll do it in the future.
The future is just a fucking concept that we use to avoid living today.
Eventually we remember. Something triggers. We stop. We see. We hear. We look back and say What the fuck was I thinking?. We live in the moment for a short span of time until the next project accelerates us forward. We hit the next peak and dive for the next trough.
Without the trough would there ever be any peaks?
You look at where you’re going and where you are and it never makes sense, but then you look back at where you’ve been and a pattern seems to emerge.
Maybe we need to rush head long into something and burn ourselves up. We need to rush forward and hit a wall. We need it. We need it so we can grow. We can look back and see how it worked. We can look at it and learn.
In that learning we can decide to do it again. Why? Because when we get out of it, when we get to that peak it’s fucking legendary.